I have already hinted here about my fears that I am not really using my degree. After spending all of High School, College, and my first four years of teaching in rehearsal every night and always working on finding the next play, I haven't directed or been onstage for eight years (It is also the reason I am in a sort of arrested pop culture development. I know far less Seinfeld than others my age and hardly even saw movies during that era. I was in rehearsal.). In those eight years, I find myself wondering more about why I don't miss it than actually missing the stage at all.
Then sometime, I remember. Call it the Peaches and Herb Effect. When I spend time with friends from that time, it makes me think about the stage again, almost even miss it. I have talked more in the last year with old college friends more than I did for the whole last decade combined, and I find the urge creeping again. Here's what's funny, though, I don't know that the old crazy extrovert is eliminating my new more introverted self as just leveling it out. I want to enroll in the stand up comedy classes I found, but want to find time for a sock knitting class also. I want to introduce the person I was to the person I am now and see if they get along.
I like it here in the center. If I do take time to perform again, it's not going to be the crazy "I have to do this to make a name for myself and have a show all the time" life but I don't ever want to be as introverted as I became when my depression was at its worst.
So here's to the new year, and the center.